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Monday, September 10, 2007

What is Chastity and How to remain Chaste?

This is an article forwarded to me by a Chastity educator. Its a good read. :)

What Is Chastity?
Chastity is sexual self-control. It means placing sexual intimacy within one relationship and one relationship only: marriage.
Although we've used the word “abstinence” in this book and have encouraged you to abstain from premarital sex, we actually prefer the term chastity when talking about sexual morality.

Abstinence is about what you cannot do (engage in sexual intimacy).
Chastity is about what you can do — lead a positive lifestyle that respects self and others. For centuries, chastity has been an admired moral virtue. Author Pat Driscoll defines chastity as “sexual goodness” — living out the truth, beauty, and goodness of human sexuality. In one of her pamphlets, “God's Plan for Sex,” Driscoll boldly states “Sex is great!” and then lists some reasons why it is:
God created sex, and it's wonderful.
God gave us operating instructions for sex (in the Bible).
Only the abuse of sex (through fornication, adultery, masturbation, etc.) is wrong.
Following God's law brings joy.

Disobeying God's law brings unhappiness and problems for ourselves and society.
God has given us many ways to express our sexuality genitally (in marriage) and non-genitally (outside of marriage).
2. Chastity applies to everybody, unmarried people and married people. How?

For unmarried people (both those planning to marry and those who intend to remain single), chastity means staying pure in thought and deed, refraining from sexual intercourse and other forms of deliberate genital arousal, and expressing one's sexuality in non-genital ways.

For married people, chastity means having sex only with your marriage partner. This form of promised faithfulness between husbands and wives — giving themselves sexually only to each other, never to anyone else — is also known as fidelity. Chastity in marriage also means keeping sex open to life. (We talk more about this in Chapter 17.)

Celibacy is a special form of chastity. People with a religious vocation — for example, priests, brothers, and nuns — take a vow of celibacy. As part of their deep commitment to God and sacrificial service to God's people, they promise to lead a life that excludes all forms of genital sexual intimacy.

Friday, August 10, 2007

ANO ANG DAPAT GAWIN KUNG TINATAMAD KANG MAGTRABAHO ?

======Nakuha ko lamang ito sa email na ipinadala saken ni Rachelle de Vera. CHAMPION!!!====
Sa buhay empleyado merong dalawang pagpipilian kung tinatamad kang magtrabaho.

A. Una ay umabsent.


1. Kapag umiikot na kaagad sa katawan mo ang katamaran pagkagising pa lang sa umaga ay mag-isip ka na kaagad ng palusot kung bakit ka aabsent. Paalala: dapat ay memoryado mo ang mga dahilang nagamit mo na dati (tip: gumawa ng isang logbook) ng sa gayon ay hindi ka parang sirang plakang nag-uulit lang lagi ng rason ng di pagpasok. Alalahanin na tuso din ang mga bossing.


2. Kapag nakaisip ka na ng magandang dahilan ay agad mag-text o tumawag sa bossing mo, the earlier the better. Kung ayaw mo ng madaming tanong e mag-text ka at kung nais mo namang tumawag ay siguraduhin mong magaling kang umarte kagaya ng kung ikaw ay kunwaring me sakit ay umubo ka ng paunti-unti habang kinakausap ang bossing mo.


3. Matapos mag-text/tumawag ay bumalik sa higaan at magplano ka na ng gusto mong gawin sa buong araw. Malaking posibilidad na magtutulog ka lang buong araw. Sya nga pala, kapag tumawag ang opisina sa kalagitnaan ng araw, laging tandaan ang rasong ginamit (consistent ka dapat), maaari namang i-off mo na lang ang phone mo para hindi ka maistorbo buong araw.


BABALA: Siguraduhing regular ka na sa kumpanyang pinagtratrabahuhan kung ikaw ay mag-aabsent.


B. Pangalawa ay pumasok


Eto ang dapat gawin ng mga empleyado kapag tinatamad magtrabaho pero ayaw umabsent. Ang mga taong ito ay nuknukan ng kapal ng mukha. Ang mga sumusunod na instructions ay napakasimple pero effective. Meron ding oras na nakatakda, magsisismula ng alas ocho ng umaga at magtatapos ng alas singko ng hapon.


1. Pumasok ng sakto sa oras. Huwag kang male-late at huwag ka din namang excited masyado.
8:00

2. Pagdating mo sa opisina ay ilapag mo lang kaagad ang gamit mo sa lamesa at magtungo kaagad sa pantry. Magtimpla ng kape o kung anuman ang iniinom mo pag umaga. Habang nasa loob ay makipag-usap sa mga tao doon, patagalin mo ang usapan (tip: pag-usapan ang mga headline ngayong araw o mga nangyari kahapon sa loob ng opisina). Kung walang tao sa pantry ay mag-yaya ka ng kasama bago pa man pumasok doon. 8:00-8:30


3. Matapos sa pantry ay magtungo na sa lamesa mo dala-dala pa din ang kape, ito ay para hindi ka antukin buong araw. Buksan ang computer. Matapos nito ay buksan ang mailbox mo. Basahin ang mga email...mapabago man o luma. Buksan lahat ng pedeng buksang attachments, makakabuti ito sa pagpapatagal ng oras. O kaya naman ay mag-email ka sa mga kakilala mong matagal mo ng di nakakamusta. Kapag di ka pa nakuntento ay gawing chat ang email (ito ay sa kadahilanang banned na ang halos lahat ng messengers sa mga kompanya...pati google talk di pinalagpas, mga hayop na IT yan). Pano? Mag-email ka sa kakilala mong alam mong merong access sa internet sa mga oras na yon tapos antayin ang reply...wholla! Instant chat session. Sya nga pala, habang ginagawa ang mga nasa taas ay huwag makakalimot inumin ang kape..lalamig ito. 8:30-9:30


4. Matapos ang makabuluhang paggamit ng computer ay magdala ng mga papel-papel at magtungo sa kung saan mo man nais. Mas maganda kung mukha kang aborido hawak ang mga props mo habang papaalis ng lamesa, ito ay para sabihin ng bossing mo sampu ng kasamahan mo sa trabaho na busy ka lagi. Magtungo sa ibang department na me kakilala at makipag-usap ng kung anu-ano. 9:30-10:00


5. Tignan mo nga naman. Alas dies na! Break time na ulit! Pagkatapos mag-lamyerda sa ibang department ay magtungo ulit sa puwesto at ibaba ang mga scratch paper na props. Dalhin ang tasa sa pantry at magtimpla ulit ng panibagong kape, libre ang kape kaya magtimpla ka lang ng magtimpla. Magtungo sa labas kung ikaw ay nag-yoyosi kung di naman ay manatili sa pantry at makipag-usap ka na lang sa mga tao doon. 10:00-10:15

6.
Pagkatapos ng break ay bumalik sa lamesa at humarap sa computer (huwag ng magdala ng kape sa lamesa...tama na ang nainom mo, sisikmurain ka na sa sobrang gahaman). Tapos ka na sa mga emails mo, ngayon naman ay mag-internet ka na lang ng kung anik-anik. Pero bago mag-internet ay magbukas ka muna ng office document kahit wala kang balak gawin ang mga ito, makakatulong ang documentong ito mamya. Tapos ay mag-internet ka na. Paalala: dapat ay alerto ka sa mga tao sa paligid mo, kapag alam mong me padating pindutin ang ALT at TAB ng sabay. Ito ay para makapunta sa office document na binuksan mo kanina. Kung mabagal ang iyong reflexes ay dapat mabilis ka sa paggamit ng mouse para ma-click mo agad sa taskbar ung documentong nasabi. Kapag na-master mo na ang technique na ito ay di na mapapansin ng bossing mo na nag-iinternet ka lang sa mga oras na ito. 10:15-12:00


7. Tama na muna ang computer. Lunch break na! Alam mo na ang dapat gawin. 12:00-1:00


8. Pagkatapos kumain ay gawin ulit ang #5. Habang gingawa ito ay maglabas ulit ng mga scratch papers na para bang me hinahanap. Tandaan na dapat seryoso ang mukha mo habang gingawa ang mga ito (tip: ikunot ang noo para makakuha ng mukhang seryoso). 1:00-3:00


9. Break time na ulit. Ang bilis nga naman ng oras. Hala..punta na ulit sa pantry. Maaari ka na ulit mag-kape at makipag-chikahan. 3:00-3:15


10. Bumalik sa lamesa at guluhin ito sa pamamagitan ng paglabas ng sandamakmak na mga papel. Tapos ay gawin ulit ang #5. Tignan ang oras sa computer mo. Kung 4:30 na ay simulan mo ng ayusin ang ginulong lamesa. Mag-ayos ayos ka na din ng sarili. Kung kasing kapal ng adobe ang mukha mo ay magtungo ka ulit sa pantry para mag-kape (tandaan na dapat me kasama sa pantry) o kaya naman ay gawin ang #3. Matapos ang lahat ng ito ay umuwi ka na, para mo ng awa...wala ka na ngang silbi ay nangdadamay ka pa ng iba sa katamaran mo. 3:15-5:00

buhay college

August 9, 2007
Ang mga sumusunod na pangyayari ay halaw sa totoong kaganapan. Ang mga pangalan ng nasangkot ay hindi pinalitan upang maging mas makatotohanan.

Jammy: Buzz
Jhoanna: oi jammy. kamusta?
Jammy: steady lang.. kelan tayo sesession ulit..
Jhoanna: sa party ni Kaycee malapit na.. punta tayo ha
Jammy: aug14 ba?
Jhoanna: hindi sa 18 sabado un..
Jammy: grabe nakakamiss na college
Jhoanna: oo nga, nakakapagod magtrabaho noh
Jhoanna: tara college ulit tayo
Jammy: college ulit o buhy colege
Jhoanna: ay buhay college pala
Jammy: friday?
Jammy: 1515?
Jhoanna: ngaun nalang.
Jhoanna: haha
Jammy: san sa taft?
Jhoanna: cge text ako ng iba
Jhoanna: pwede daw si soky
Jhoanna: kela soky nalang tayo
Jhoanna; tara na ano?
Jammy: anong tym?
Jhoanna: ngaun na punta na ko
Jammy: teka naman.. easy
Jhoanna: yan ka na naman tapos ba backout ka ha
Jammy: hindi cge. mga 8pm pako makakarating
Jhoanna: ocge text text


*****so 9pm nagsimula ang inuman sa garden nila soky kasama ng generoso, 2 1.5 coke, 3 oishing maanghang, isang chippy, 3 cloudnine at marlboro lights ni soky. Nagbuhay college kame, reminisce ng mga kalokohan sa klase, mga boylet at girlets, ammerrrka days, chismis at COD days.. at lahat lahat na.. sinamahan kame ng alak para magbalik kolehiyo. Isa to sa mga pinakspontaneous na nagawa namen, mejo madale na kausap basta alak ang usapan...***


**** ang bago lang, wala nang sumusuka, nagsisigawan, tulog at nagbabasag sa inuman na un. Meron na ding usapang insurance, columbarium, sexual harrassment at kung ready na ba sa kasal kasal. Syempre di maiiwasan ang usapang trabho kung san kame pupulutin pagkatpos ng ilang taon.***

***Matagal tagal ko din na ndi nakita si jammy at soky pero masasabe kong wala paring nagbago. Kame pa rin ung dating Jojai, Jammy at Soky. MAy bago mang mga boylets at girlets, may bago mang trabaho o wala, bagong mga kaibigan, bagong karanasan, bagong mundo, bagong kame, may babalikan kameng mundo kung san pwede namen makita ulit kung ano at sino kame noon.. Hinanap namen ang isang parte ng buhay namen na matagal tagal na rin nawala.. ang buhay college. Ngunit dahil dito napatunayan kong kahit kelan ay kaya namen ibalik ang buhay na un, anumang oras basta kame ang magkakasama... (grabe ang keso neto) at syempre kung buhay college lang din ang paguuspan syempre may kasamang usapang bote yan:)****

Thursday, August 2, 2007

.:IKEEPLOVEREAL:.

You are invited to join the "IKEEPLOVEREAL" Competition in preparation for the Second International Congress on Education in Love, Sex and Life that will happen on the 19th to 23rd of November 2007. The competition is composed of two categories which are the Song Writing and Video Documentary also entitled "IKEEPLOVEREAL" The competition series is being held to increase awareness on the importance of education of the young in character and chastity, exemplified by the personal example of parents and other educators.

For further details and mechanics visit the website at www.edicongress.com.



love, laughter and life ever after....


Please support the
Second International Congress
on Education in Love, Sex and Life

Manila, Philippines
EDSA Shangri-La Hotel
19 to 22 November 2007


Wednesday, August 1, 2007

the one that got away

THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY
Source: The Manila Times
By: Mark J. Macapagal


In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with...and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little nice ties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it'snot yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact

........... Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come.

Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about. You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?"

That's what the one that got away is, the biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it.Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens... Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing. But if neither of that is the case, then it's different.


What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one? Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away." You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference.

If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."

Monday, July 30, 2007

sighs..

why do girls fall into bait and end up hanging on..for nothing.

.:this sucks:.

sigh

Why do guys pursue other girls,
when they already have a relationship to worry about?!!!

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe

***This maybe the time of the month where I question myself and the things that have been happening with me -- this can be the so called self-assessment(wtf?!)***


So who am I this month or should I say for the past few months...


The LION

When you syllabicate the word it would spell as LI-ON. Which is a homonym of "La Un" in tagalog...

In (layman's) or should I consider Jhoanna's terms, its the Little Miss Past Time..

For the past months I feel for so many times being a part time person..

Part time secretary...
Part time teacher...
Part time SO...
Part time bestfriend...
Part time sister..
Part time teacher..
Part time everything..

In most cases, I consent the situation.
I consent people to make me a part time person in their lives...
I willingly let them take a part of my life and leave me hanging without any warning signs..

Yes, its unfair! But really,in many ways I make this SHIT happen..So right now i am a LION...


The WITCH

Witch . a person, now esp. a woman, who professes or is supposed to practice magic, esp. black magic or the black art; sorceress. Cf. warlock. (Retrieved from http://www.infoplease.com/dictionary/witch)

I have been a WITCH for quite some time, but definitely not the literal meaning of it. I don't have magic or any supernatural power and Im not an old woman. (haha!)


I feel like a Witch because I have been talking shitty and tactless to some people...

I know I offended people with my comments and somehow I dont apologize for it. Aside from that, I do things that I should not have done especially that I am the one in authority in that situation. This is so witchy! haha!

and lastly,

The WARDROBE


From the words of Gee Bravo, "I am a teacher in DISGUISE".

I pretend to be someone I am not..

Everytime I finish a class I get frustrated and in a way useless..
I'm still weighing if this is the right path for me or if Im just doing all this for money and lack of job that would accept me..

On the contrary, everytime Im in class and with my students, I feel I have so much to share and to learn from them.
I love my students.. present and former students..
I love my co-teachers and the people I work with...
I love the subject and its objective...

So why do I feel like this everytime..
Well, I also dont know..




This is who I am for the past months. Right now, I need answers which I am pretty sure wouldnt be answered..


Still, after all this.. All's good:)







Friday, June 22, 2007

past time girl

I just read a blog from a friend about hurting over a break up and it seems I feel the same pain. Im not actually in a relationship or mending a broken heart or loving someone in silence but that I've been there and the feeling sucks.


Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Questions

I received an email last June 19, 2007 about a job opportunity for some NGO. For some unknown reason i just read it today. I thought it was a hoax mail so i did not bother to read it at all. So why did i read it today? Coz i had no choice i wasn't doing anything so i said what the heck, just read on it.

After reading I replied without hesitation. I was interested to apply for it and I even had my mind set on it. It was a great opportunity for me to do what i want to do and maybe, go abroad. I was so excited becuase for one, I was referred to by his personal friend from AIM and second, the work was exactly the same with what I am doing now.

But the bad news came. They needed someone for the position immediately. They couldnt wait for my contract to end before hiring me. I couldnt do anything, so i had to thank the person for considering me and letting the opportunity go away.

I am so disappointed till now. The job would have been mine if i wasnt doing anything, if only i was free of any contracts. I would have made my mom and dad proud coz I'll have the chance to work abroad. I wanted to cry, i wanted to shout and breakdown.. but then it was too exagerrated for me. TOO MUCH DRAMA. I couldnt do anything coz i cant just go and leave my other work for a new one. It was against my principles. I am going to finish what I have started and im sticking to it.

i even came to the point of questioning Kuya Jess. Why give me something i cant have? Why put me in a situation that i cant get my way? Why cant i have all?

I want to get away and find a job somewhere else. I want a new life. Life that i can experience outside Philippines or if its too big of a dream, then outside Manila. I want to do development work althoug it doesnt pay a lot. The job description fits me perfectly. I have no problem going away or traveling for work..


But then again at the end of the day, i couldnt have the job. It wasnt for me, although i wanted it Kuya Jess will reveal everything in His time.

So there's nothing for me to do but to rant here and wait for His answers.Ü

Still all's good.Ü

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

commercial

pagod na ba ako talaga o sinasabe lang ng utak kong pagod ako?


actually, petiks lang ako sa work, wala gano ginawa except sa letters to participants na pahabol. pero other than that i did nothing...
all i did was surf the net, check my friendster, check other people's friendster, organize and comment on my multiply site and other people's site... i waited for 4pm so i could go to school for my class at 6pm.. had to walk to St. Francis square to buy shoes, coz my goddam shoes gave up on me. i couldnt risk falling in class so i had no choice but to buy a new pair. Damn..

Then i walked through Megamall to reach MRT. When i reached the platform, i was perspiring like hell.. damn, and i even had make up on, which makes things worst..

i almost fell asleep at the train coz i was feeling really tired and exhausted. Exhausted from the long walk and the heat of the sun. Then i had to ride the LRT for another 5-10 minutes to reach my destination...

the clock is ticking and im dreading it.. i feel so tired i feel like i wouldnt be teaching too good today...

i need energy....

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

The Jellyfish Experience

Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Huling Hirit sa Tag Init
Palm Beach Resort
San Juan, Batangas
NSTP Planning Workshop.

Minsan pag may gusto kang makuha o maabot gagawin mo ang lahat basta makuha mo lang un. ------> Yan ang natutunan ko isang umaga ng May 23, 2007.



Obviously, nasa beach kame nun at dahil sa alam kong huling hirit ko na un bago magbagyo eh nag sige na ako sa pagswimming kahit napakaitim ko na. Ang usapan namen nun ni Iris sa pampang lang kame pero the site of the little floating house in the middle of the ocean was very tempting. So, ako etong nagmamagaling eh nagstruggle papunta sa maliit na bahay na yun. Marame akong pinagdaanan, may masakit sa paang bato sa ilalim ng dagat, malalim na parte na hindi ko na abot, malalake at madudulas na bato na kelangan kong daanan para makalapit sa bahay na un. Nung una natakot ako kasi parang sobrang lalim at layo na namen sa pampang pero sabe ni sir Allan saken, " Kung hindi ka magri-risk, anong mangyayre sayo?" Dahil dun lumakas ang loob ko at alam ko din naman na andun sila para sumaklolo saken.

So nagpursigi pa rinkame hanggang sa marating namen ung malalim na parte ng dagat. natakot ako pero mas kinabahan si Sir Allan saken, kasi HINDI PALA SIYA MARUNONG MAGSWIMMING. Akalain mong antapang tapang nya pero di naman pala siya marunong.. kaya naman mas naging malakas ang loob ko kasi marunong naman ako. So Ayun na, nagswim ako at sa wakas nakarating sa maliit na bahay na yun. Dali dali akong umakyat kasi nakakatakot baka makagat ako ng dikya.

Ansaya ko nun, parang malaking challenge un para saken kasi nagawang kong mapuntahan un ng wlang gamit na bangka o anuman, sariling sikap lang talaga. Pagdating namen dun sa bahay, andaming isdang makikita at napaka satisfying ng feeling dahil maganda ang view. Ang masaya pa dun nakuha ko ung gusto ko nakarating ako sa bahay....

Kelangan na namen bumalik kasi sabe nila Iris 10:55Am na daw at kelangan na namen magayos.. so, isa isa nang bumaba sa bahay at naglakbay pabalik sa pampang...

katulad ng pagpunta dun, kinabahan at natakot din ako sa pwedeng mangyare saken, kasi marameng threats, andun na malalim, bak hindi ko kayanin lumangoy, may dikya o anumang lamang tubig ang kumagat saken, at kung anu anu pang kapraningan.. pero sabe ko bahala na, alanganamang magpasaklolo ako dun diba, nakaya kong puntahan dapt kayanin ko din na bumalik..

so, dahil nagmamagaling na naman ako, nagdive epek pa ako at ayun nag breast stroke ako, pag angat ko ulit naramdaman ko na ung hapdi at sakit.. wala akong makapitan o maapkan dahil malalim ang tubig at wla namang bato na pwede kong hawakn, wala ding gutter kasi hindi naman un swimming pool...

pinilit kong hindi indahin ang saket kaso hindi ko tlaga kinaya.. kaya ang nangyare.. c manong driver lang ang nandun at skanya lang ako pwede kumapit kaya humawak agad ako saknya at sinabing najellyfish nga ako. Ayaw pa nila ako paniwalaan nun kaya ako na mismo ang nagtanggal ng tentacles ng jellyfish habang nakapikit ako.. nung una, parang sabe ko kaya ko to, hindi ako iiyak at mararating ko din ang pampang..


kaya sinubukan ko ulit lumangoy, pero i couldnt handle the pain anymore, lumapit na ako kay LEvi at humawak, sabe ko hindi ko na kaya lumangoy mahapdi at masakit na talga.. Sabe nya cge, hawak ka lang.. dun na ko talgang naiyak at nagfreak out. Naramdaman ko na pati sa muka at likod at braso, buong leeg ko nadali ng jellyfish...

Sabe lang ni sir paul, cge lang kaya mo yan..

pero nagiiyak na tlaga ko nun...

Malapit na din kasi ang pasukan kaya nakakhiya pag pumasok ako ng mga jellyfish sa fes..

so inakay nila ako papunta sa pampang. doon nagiintay si iris habang sumisigaw ng picture..

syempre nakakahiya so nakatalikod lang ako dahil namumula talaga ang fes and leeg ko. Hindi pa rin alam ng mga tao sa pampang nun na injured nako.. kaya din ayaw ko humarap, ayokong makita nila na nasaktan ako.. Nasaktan ako dahil sa kakulitan at katigasan ng ulo ko..

Pero syempre hindi ko pwedeng forever itago, nalaman din nila at imbes na sisihin nila ko eh tinulungan pa nila ako...


Nilagyan lahat ng parte ng nasaktan saken ng buhangin un kasi sabe ni manong driver na laking dagat, so nilagyan naman,,,

Hindi ko na din magawang umiyak kasi lahat sila nagtatawa, wala na rin namang magagwa ang iyak ko kaya dinaan ko nalang din sa tawa, naki ride on ako.. nagpalagay ng buhangin at napansin ko namang unti unting nawawala ung hapdi...

pero hindi siya nawala ng tuluyan, naramdaman kong parang kulang pa din un g solusyon, parang dapat may iba pa akong gawin.. kung kaya naman pinainom ako ni sir paul ng anti histamine at pinainom ng carbonated water ni Sir cocoi.. Sabe nila makakatulong daw un...

Hanggang sa dumating si kuya na mainstay ng resort sabe nya kelangan lagyan ng suka para gumaling kaya andun ang trusted friend kong si iris para lagyan.. DI nya inida ang amoy, andun siya para suportahan ako. Instantly, naging PAKSIW ako..

PAnget man at mabaho ang naging solusyon talagang nagsubside ung pamumula.. so nakaligo at nakabihis na din ako...


Hindi pa rin dun natapos ung epekto ng jellyfish nangngati naman ito at mejo mahapdi pa din.. At dahil din s auminom ako ng anti histamine naantok at nakatulog ako...

Hanggang paguwi ko sa bhay mahapdi at makati pa din, at nung kinwento ko un sa nanay ko syempre nakarinig din naman ako ng sermon pero nagbigay parin siya ng pwede kong panlunas.

After ilang araw at linggo naging ok na ulit ang lahat. wala nang bakas na najellyfish ako.. lahat sa memory ko nalang...


Pero di lang sa kwento nagtatapos ang lahat, syempre meron akong natutunan......




(to be continued)

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

disclaimer (posted at happy house on April 12, 07)

writing in my blog is not something i brag about, neither is it an opportunity for me to preach about love, its bitterness and sadness, or the wonders of the world or its darkness. i don't intend to preach i'm not hoping to be a priest, come to think of it i am a girl so i really cant be a priest. i write because it is what i feel in that special moment of my life, whether its a good momen or a bad one it's still a special moment. Everything that is written here has a root, has a cause, has a history. Writing what i feel makes me ready to face another challenging or happy moment, but i always cherish sad and lonely moment i have. it makes me who i am, cliche as it may sound. After writing it, i dont expect people to read it not even to comment about it. Commenting is free but never make it an opportunity to judge a person. Words are never enough to express nor describe what is really though by the mind and felt by the heart. Blogs are just synopsis of reality, while sometimes its just exageration, keep that in mind and spare me your judgements!

Number 1 (posted at happy house Dec. 27, 2006)


marami nang artikulong nasulat tungkol sa tagong pagibig...
lalo na sa pagibig na di pwedeng sabihin.marami mang nasulat wala namang solusyon. kasi minsan di mo masabi kung mahal na nga ba ang nararamdaman mo o nililito ka lang ng kalungkutan..
may nagkomento saken nung magtanong ako kung bakit ganun ung isang babae sa lalaking kausap nya? madikit, bungisngis at parang lageng masaya pag kasama nya un. sabe saken, "kasi binigibyan sya ng atensyon kaya ganun nalang siya kapag kasama ung lalaki." so, pwede na nateng i-equate ung love sa attention ganun ba?
o icpn na mahal mo na cia o ang isiping mahal ka din nya kasi nabigyan ka ng atensyon...
oo, di naman masamang mangarap, di din masamang ngumiti ng walang dahilan (kahit na alam mong siya talga ang dahilan), di din masamang masaktan pag nakita mo siyang may kasamang iba, di masama hanggat di ka nagsasalita, hanggat di ka kumikibo at hanggat kaya mong magpretend na ok ka at wala naman siyang halaga sayo.
un na ata ung isa sa masakit na pwedeng scenario, masayang masaya siya, unmindful of your existence, kung anjan ka ok lang, kung wala eh di wala, di ka hahanapin!
di ka na nga napapansin kahit anjan ka, tapos kayang kaya ka pa nyang kalimutan basta basta
ang tanong ngaun bakit hindi mo masabe? o hindi sabihin? dahil ba sa duwag ka? o dahil sa ayaw mong icpn kung anong mangyayare kapag sinabi mo? o dahil komplikado? o dahil ayaw mo ng magulo?
o di naman kaya ayaw mong mawala ang kaisa isang source ng kasiyahan mo? o ayaw mong mgising sa katotohanan na sira ulo ka sa kakaisip sa kanya? in short, DUWAG ka nga!
duwag ka kcng sabihin, duwag ka ding hindi sabihin
duwag ka din na tanggapin na may nararamdaman ka o wala kang nararamdaman...
wala rin naman kcng tamang sagot...
kasi kahit ikaw di mo rin alam ang sagot!!!
tapos sasabihin mo: "DUwag na kung duwag, mas gugustuhin kong andyan siya kahit malayo kesa naman mawala siya at matutunan na akong kalimutan"
hay, ansaket sa hart!, nagpapakamartyr epek ka sa taong di naman alam ang nararamdaman mo,
para sa kanya ung isang kain sa labas wala lang pero para sayo pinakamasayng kain mo na un, na ung simpleng dampi ng kamay nya sa kamay mo forever mo nang maaalala samanatalang di man lang nyang naalalang ngkahawak kayo ng kamay, na magbigay ka lang ng tissue sa kanya eh nakakakilig na sayo pero sakanya simpleng paghingi lang un...
hay, anghirap nun. sayo magandang alaala saknya wala lang.
pero, icipn mo hindi nga kaya nya alam o nagbubulagbulagan lang siya dahil ayaw niyang magassume na mhal mo nga cia,
kasi isa rin pala siyang duwag.
duwag na magkamali at mapahiya sayo..
so ang gagawin mo magleletgo ka kasi unfair naman sayo un na paran kang tangang nagmamahal sa taong di nga alam na anjan ka...
at siya.. iisipin nyang wala ka ngang naramdaman para saknya..
tapos.. lilpas ang araw, buwan at taon.
sinasabe mo sa sarili mong nakapagmove on ka na,
un din naman ang pinipilit mong paniwalaan..
kaso nagkita kayo ulit...
would you take the chance to say what you feel?
o magpapakaduwag ka nalng sa pangalawang pagkakataon?

Spacin' out


I dont want to be a robot..
i wanna be a space girl.... coz in space there's no gravity...
without it.. i won't fall...X_X

today's the day i whine!!

I hate it when people pretend to do something when actually they're not doing anything. When they try hard to look busy and all just so people would be impressed with them and say that they're good at what they do. They make people see that they have too many business meetings or they need to write too many business stuff and talk to important people. One of my friend said that "Kung ayaw daw magtrabaho, magpatawag ng meeting" which is precisely my point. Some people call fro meetings coz they dont want anything done and having a meeting is an obvious act that one is busy and is doing important things. The reality when you sit in that meeting is that things discussed before are just being repeated to kill time. After the so-called meeting, they go back to the office and rants about many things needed to be done. Ironic right?! Then there are those business stuffs needed to be written or sent to important people, they'll make their keyboard sound like they're setting their computers on fire, (Again, to display a "busy" mode act) but when you peek into it they're just typing instant messages or blogging. That's all BS! Lastly, talking to "important people", calling people every once in a while just to talk to them and broadcast in the office that they have stuff to do and things complicate them but then again its the same old crap that has been decided on meetings. Sometimes, they may seem to look like they're talking to very important people but believe they are not really that important.

There really is nothing wrong with people pretending to be busy, what makes it wrong is when they boss around people and act as if others are not doing their jobs. Not doing their jobs for them means not "pretending" to do anything. I don't like people who clamor for glory and who loves recognition even if they really do not deserve it. Some people really belittle other people just so they can feel good about themselves. It makes them believe that they are better than others, that they are smart, intelligent, etc.. but really I think its all insecurity. Really, when one thinks too highly of themselves and makes other people's lives miserable just to make theirs better is nothing but a proof of insecurity. When they need to shout what they have done and accomplished, and whine at the simplest things in the world is not only insecurity but also having too much drama in their system.

I dont easily get mad but i get irritated when people rants and whines too much about things not worth ranting about. I work quietly and if possible, i try to solve things on my own. Shouting or whining does not do any good. Pretending never pleases anyone and sooner or later the truth comes out. I especially do not appreciate people underestimating others just so they can make themseves shine. As a song states: "YOU CANT FAKE IT HARD ENOUGH TO PLEASE EVERYONE OR ANYONE AT ALL."

I know this is in contradiction to what i wrote but i just needed to RANT a bit!:)

Monday, April 30, 2007

Closing Cycle by Paulo Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end.

If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters – whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden?

You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.

But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back.

Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts – and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.

Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the "ideal moment." Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person – nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.

Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

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