Liebster Award for Thereyoujho

Thank you, Louisa Mercado of www.artofbeingamom.com for the nomination. hihi! This is my first time to do this kind of blogpost. 

Here are the rules:
1. You have to link back to the person who nominated you.
2. You must answer 11 questions given to you by the person who nominated you.
3. After completing these questions you must nominate 11 bloggers and give them 11 questions of your choice
4. You must not nominate the person who nominated you.
5.You must let your nominees know that they have been nominated and provide a link to your post for them so that they can learn about the nomination.

Here are the questions given by Louisa to me:

1. Why and how long did you start blogging?  I started blogging when I was in college just to express my teenage angst and issues, it was in 2007. At present, I am more into blogging my motherhood expereinces and beauty related posts. It has been 7 years since then.

2. What is your favorite book or movie? This one's difficult cause I don't usually remember the titles of movies I watch but one movie I loved is Identity.

3. Is there something you learned in your blog journey that you wished you knew before? I did not know before that there were groups that support and teach you about blogging. I am so grateful I found people/blogger who are super nice and accommodating.

4. What is your favorite past time other than blogging? I like doing crafts, writing, reading and arranging photos. I also like watching series and pinoy movies.

5. How many hours per week do you dedicate to blogging? Blogging is really hard work, with all the taking of photos, outlining and etc, I think it averages about 10 hours or more.

6. What category of blog posts do you enjoy the most? I love writing about beauty or skincare and anything about my baby's experiences.

7. Where does your blog inspiration come from? It comes from all sorts of things but mostly I am inspired by helping others through my blogposts.

8. What is your favorite post that you have written? I don't really have a favorite blogpost but I enjoy my posts that helps other people, about information they need and my DIYs.

9. Is there any post that you have been planning to do, but kept postponing for awhile now? I actually have a lot, from late posts to the ones I dont know how to write about haha!:)

10. How did your friends and family react when you first started blogging, and what do they think about it now? Well, at first I dont really share about my blog except to some chosen few but now I think they already know and support me on it. I think they just dont really get the point right now hihi.

11. Which blogpost of mine do you like the most? I like reading about your blogging tips and food trips. I enjoy learning from you and I also like to try restaurants or foods you've tried. :)


Okay, so for my nominees:

1. Danica Abrigo of http://thesweetkitty216.blogspot.com/
2. Jean Quimabao of http://jeanquiambao.net/
3. Nicole Cuerdo of http://www.thecluelessmomph.com/
4. Joycelyn Mendoza of http://wifemomprincess.blogspot.com/
5. Hazel Ann Asoy of http://hazelasoy.blogspot.com/
6. Kissel Elizalde of http://palettesnferrules.com/


For the questions:
1. Why and how long did you start blogging?  

2. What is your favorite make up and why?

3. Is there something you learned in your blog journey that you wished you knew before? 

4. What is your favorite past time other than blogging? 

5. How many hours per week do you dedicate to blogging? 

6. What category of blog posts do you enjoy the most? 

7. Where does your blog inspiration come from?

8. What is your favorite post that you have written? 

9. Is there any post that you have been planning to do, but kept postponing for awhile now? 
10. How did your friends and family react when you first started blogging, and what do they think about it now? 

11. Which blogpost of mine do you like the most?

Thanks and enjoy answering the questions! Congrats on your Liebster award nomination!:) 

TEACHER'S TALE:Of Certain Truths and Uncertainties

its eleven in the evening and i just finished checking exam papers of my students. i finished really fast and nto considering the grades my student got, i felt sad. hence, this blog.
there are truths and uncertainties that have been lingering in my mind for almost six months now. it started early part of the month, january to be exact. the day i knew i had to face truths and uncertainties.

truth #1. i only have two months and im gone.

ive talked about this truth to so many people too many times. to the point that i bored myself thinking and talking about it. this is my last term of teaching and though i knew of it six months ago, it still doesnt feel right.

truth #2. i have accepted but not without pain.

for the first few months that i ve learned of truth #1, all i felt was pain. pain of losing the one thing i loved doing. pain of not being able to be with the people i have grown with. people i learned a lot from. People who have accepted me, inside and out. People i have considered family.
i also felt pain that i would not be able to teach students again in CSB. the pain that just at the time that i knew i meant something to some students is the time i have to go.
Pain knowing this was all my fault.
i have accepted but it is just too painful.

Truth #3. i am scared.

for the past months, i have not been able to fully admit to myself that i am scared.
scared that i might not be able to accomplish the last task i need to do.
scared that i might not find a job thats both enjoyable and fulfilling.
scared that i might not meet people as fun as the people i have now.
scared that i might be too old.
scared that all the plans i have for the next months may not come thru at all.

i have been face with these truths but more overwhelming are the uncertainties. I have no idea what my future holds for me. I worry myself for most of the nights im alone that i experience dreaming about zombies caused by stress. for 6 years i have never faced this enormous uncertainty in my life up until now.

Uncertainty #1. Where will i be after August.
ive been planning. plans always bring uncertainties.
what if these plans fail me, how do i pick myself up again? How do i tell people? What do i tell them? more than the uncertain plans, what worries me more is my embarrassment.

Disclaimer: dont confuse this to my being coward or mahina ang loob. what i feel now is different.
 
uncertainty #2. will i ever finish?
Will I finish, will i even be able to stand up again and pick where i left of in my studies? How do i deal with it now that i dont have the support group i had in the first part?
If i do finish, where will it lead me?

Uncertainty #3: What does this mean? IS there any reason or purpose for this happening in my life?
I have always believe in purpose. that somewhere in this universe someone has a big plan for me. That this is all part of the plan. I believe that all things happen because it is meant to happen.
But this time, i cannot fully put my trust on this belief. Is this really where im supposed to be, to leave the job i am passionate about, to leave the people i love so much, to be alone?


Until August, I am the same person 6 years ago. A teacher.



after that i am lost.