Malaking Tsek!

Tuwing bubuksan ko ang account ko sa facebook, hindi mawawala na laging mayroong bagong bagay na ginagawa ang mga friends ko. Madalas nagpapakita ito ng kasiyahan, bagong karanasan, at kung ano anong sitwasyong nagpapakita malamang ng isang malaking check sa kanilang mga things to do before i die.

Marame din akong mga things to do.. Unti unti naabot ko naman, paisa isa.. mabagal ang pagusad. Naisip ko anu nga bang dahilan na hindi ko malagyan ng malaking check ang mga ito gaya ng mga kaibigan ko. Napaisip ako, madalas kasi mahilig akong gumawa ng EXCUSES. Na ganito, ganun, na wala akong oras o busy ako o anuman. Pero ang katotohanan, wlang katotohanan ang lahat ng excuses na ginawa ko sa buhay ko. Kaya nga excuses ang tawag diba? Naghahanap ng lusot, naghahanap ng pwedeng iturong dahilan para di ko un magawa. Pero ang talagang dahilan marahil eh ndi ko talaga alam kung saan o ano ang tunay kong gustong gawin.

Sa totoo lang, lahat ng bagay gusto kong subukan, kung ano ang uso gusto ko magawa ko din, madalas sa larangan ng sports un. Pag nasubukan ko naman na masaya at kuntento na ako. Hindi ko nagagawang ipagtuloy tuloy ang anumang nasubukan ko na. Malamang nangagaling un sa prinsipyo kong gusto ko lang maranasan ang lahat, pag nagawa at nalaman ko na ang pakiramdam ng ganon, eh ok na ako. Kaya nga din siguro wala akong masabing isang bagay na magaling talaga ako. Pero pag tinanong mo ko kung nasubukan ko na ba ito o ito o ito, malamang nasubukan ko na nga.

Eh ano pa nga bang hinihingi ko? Hindi ko din alam. Sabe ko nga kanina pa hirap akong alamin kung anuman ang gusto ko sa buhay. Kaya kahit na andiyan na ang mga bagay na nagpapasaya saken, nararamdaman ko pa rin paminsan minsan, na may kulang. Naghahangad ako ng pansamantalang bugso ng dugo, gulat sa buhay, something out of the ordinary, isang bagong surpresa, isang bagong karanasan.

Alam kong mahirap akong ma-satisfy ng buhay. Napakalaki ng tingin ko sa buhay, at napakaliit ko kumpara dito. Pakiramdam kong napakadami pang maihahandog saken ng mundo, at parang uhaw na uhaw ako sa ganda at misteryong meron ito.

Masaya ako sa meron ako pero alam kong ang lawak pa ng mundong nagaantay saken. Siguro nga kahit naman paisa isa, kahit mabagal, kahit maliliit na check pa lamang ang nailalagay ko sa things to do ko. Ang importante ay mayroong check, maliit man o malake.. Check na magsasabing nilulubos ko ang buhay na meron ako.:)

pahabol: malungkot ako ng simulan kong isulat ito, pero nagtapos na may ngiti na ako:)

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Wants to make everything work.

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i hate goodbyes...:(

Lessons from the 2010 Election

The principle of democracy is that the many are wiser than the few.

Let us always remember that the only way for EVIL people to prevail is if GOOD PEOPLE DO NOTHING!!!

Galing sa Baol: PAGOD NA AKONG MAGING UNNGOY

Dahil Sabado de Gloria ngaun, naisipan kong maglinis ng kwarto para bukas Linggo na talga ng Pagkabuhay pati sa maliit kong kwarto. Tuwing naglilinis ako ndi maiiwasan ang mga alikabok na naglalabasan, mga basurang matagal nang dapat naitapon at ang mga sulat kong ndi ko na nagawang ipublish pa dito sa blogspot ko.

Eto ang una kong nakita, nakasulat sa yellow pad na malamang kolehiyo ko pa nung naisulat. Panahon pa ng Kurapson ni GMA un, alam ko meron pa rin naman ngayon pero ito yata ung kasagsagan ng isyu na un.

PAGOD NA AKONG MAGING UNGGOY

Ngayon, may hinaharap na naman tayong krisis pampulitika. Paikot - ikot na lang eh,una si Marcos, sumunod si Erap ngayon naman si Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo naman?!

Gusto na naman siyang i-impeach, ipagresign, ipa-oust. Lahat nalang ng pwedeng paraan para mapalitan siya bilang presidente.

Hindi ako Pro-GMA, o Pro-FPJ, o anti-GMA o anuman. Doon lang ako sa TAMA, doon ako sa ikauunlad ng bansa. Ayoko na ng rahas o ng isa pang EDSA, ng isa pang impeachment process. Nagiging stagnant na ang gulong ng buhay ng mga pinoy eh. Magbobotohan, paalisin ang presidente, papalitan, magrereklamo ang bayan, kakalabanin ng oposisyon, susunod ang masa, magkakaron ng hati ang mayayaman at mahihirap, tataas ang presyo ng langis at bilihin, maghihirap ang taong bayan, dagdag pasanin na naman sa maralitang pinoy.

Hindi ako eksperto sa political science, government or bureaucracy. (Sobrang dami na nilang may alam dun kaya di nako makikisali pa) pero sa tingin ko dapat nang TIGILAN ANG SIRAAN. Hindi porket nasa oposisyon ka eh wala ka nang gagawin kundi kontrahin ang administrasyon. Suporta at respeto lang naman sa tingin ko ang kailangan. Sa mga oposisyon, imbes na sinasayang nyo ang oras nya para hanapan ng mali ang administrasyon, bakit ndi nyo nalang igugol ang oras ninyo upang mas mapaunlad ant maiangat ang buhay ng bawat Pilipino. Sa ganun, mas may karapatan kayong magsabe na naiiintindihan ninyo ang mga tao. Kailangan nang unahin ang kapakanan ng ibang taong sadlak sa pagkabilanngo dahil sa kahirapan. Tigilan na ang pagyuyurak sa kapwa ninyo politicians.

Sa administrasyon naman, gawin ninyo din sana kung ano ang nararapat. Sundin ninyo ang atas na kayo din mismo ang gumawa. Huwag puro sariling interes lamang ang iniisip. Dapat lang na ibalik ninyo ang tiwalang binigay ng publiko sa paglalagay sa mga posisiyon ninyo ngayon.

Sa madaling salita, para sa lahat ng politiko. TRABAHO..AT MABUTING TRABAHO lamang ang kailangan. Protektahan sana ninyo ang kapakanan ng bawat Pilipino na inihabilin sa inyong mga kamay ang kanilang buhay. Ibalik naman din ninyo sa ating mga bayani ang ipinaglaban nila.

Para sa mga KAPWA KO PINOY, sana mapagod na tayo sa ganitong sitwasyon ng Pilipinas. Huwag nating ipagwalang bahala ang mga nangyayayari. Huwag naman sana tayong gumawa ng isa pang EDSA revolution dahil ndi na tama na sa tuwing may ndi tayo magugustuhan ay dadalhin natin ito sa kalsada. Nagmumuka na tayong mga unngoy sa international community at sa sarili nating bansa. Nagiging isa na tayong "Stage" kung san pinaglalaruan tayo at ginagawang larularuan. Sana makita naten na tayo ang solusyon sa problemang meron tayo ngaun. Ang bawat maliit na bagay na ginagawa naten ay makakaapekto sa pagunlad o pagbagsak ng bansa. Nailagay ang mga tao sa gobyerno ndi para alisin o i-magic ang lahat ng problema sa bansa, andyan lamang sila upang manguna. AT TAYO? TAYO AY NANDITO UPANG KUMILOS. UPANG ILAGAY SA ATING MGA KAMAY ANG SARILI NATING KAPAKANAN.
Tayo ang gumagawa ng ating buhay, ibig sabihin may magagawa tayo upang umangat at iangat kasama natin ang bansa.

Pagod na akong maging unggoy, sana ikaw din.

Monasteryo de Tarlac

This Holy Week 2010, my family decided to go to Tarlac City to see Monasteryo De Tarlac. My dad saw it on TV and we felt it was something we should go to this Lenten season for reflection. Coming from Bulacan, the travel was smooth because the traffic was really light. We didnt also find it hard to get to the place because of the signages on the road. But the travel was really long. It took us around 3 to 4 hours to finally arrive at the monastery.

It is situated in Brgy. Lubigan, San Jose Tarlac City. From afar, the statue of the Risen Christ could easliy be seen because it stands 30 feet high. The construction was not yet completely finished but in general it was suitable for a retreat or pilgrimages. There is a small chapel where we heard mass and a big plaza like outside. There was also hectares and hectares of land filled with trees. The highlight of the monastery is an arqueta where the relic of the cross of Jesus is placed. We heard the Liturgy of the Word followed by a healing session. After which everyone was given a chance to touch the arqueta of the relic of the cross and pray for their petition.

I would say it would have been a lot nicer if the place was fully constructed because there's not much to see. Then again, I was not there to tour the place but to seek for serenity and peace. I would say the place and the sermon of the priest really opened my eyes to the true meaning of the Lenten season. It is a time where Jesus reminds us of how great His love for us is.

For others who would like to visit the monastery, here are some of the tips you might find useful:
Monasteryo de Tarlac
Sanctuary of the Holy Cross
Srvants of the Risen Christ
P.O. Box #21, Tarlac City, 2300
Email Address: servantsoftherisenchrist@yahoo.com
Mobile No.: 0916 250 8414
Tel. Nos.: (045) 493 - 3002/493 2252
Website:www.monasterio-de-tarlac.weebly.com
Schedule of Ministries:
10:30 Am Masses (Wednesday, Saturday, Sunday)
Confession: 30 mins before and after mass
Veneration of the Relic of the True Cross follows after the mass
Thursday; The Monastery if closed
Retreat and Pilgrimage activities: Make prior reservations with Father Thomas Laurence, SRC 0915 3328888, 0919 558 5000
http://www.monasteriotarlac.multiply.com/

How to get there: (From sunstar.com)
From Manila, take North Luzon Expressway (Nlex), exit at Sta. Ines Toll Plaza in Mabalacat, Pampanga. Proceed north to Tarlac City. Upon reaching Barangay San Sebastian (Hon Kee Tea House), take a left turn to the bypass road (Tarlac-Pangasinan) towards the town of Camiling. Follow the 36-kilometer backcountry but well-paved road to Barangay Lubigan in San Jose, Tarlac.

Little Miss Teacher

I have been teaching for almost four years already. I have handled all sorts of students, from the quiet ones to the most "pasaway" ones. Each term brings new experiences and challenges and students would never fail to surprise or leave a mark in my heart.

The road to my being a teacher is never an easy one. I still remembered very clearly how my "career" started. It was just an ordinary day when I went to my former school to ask for some data for the paper I was writing for my masterals. When my former teacher told me to pass my resume and apply as a teacher. I actually didnt think twice. For one, I wasnt working and that was the only job offered to me during that time. So, I did pass my resume.

After a month or so, I was not called for an interview. It was then that I knew I wasnt qualified for the position. Then to my surprise, I was called to report for a panel interview. I didnt tell anyone about that interview because I have a curse on job interviews I broadcast. So, I went there..

First Question: Why are you late?
Me: to myself (I am not late. Am I?!)
Sir 1: She's not late, actually maaga pa siya.
Me: wheew...:)
2nd question (that i remembered): What's the last book you've read?
Me: Westernizing the Third World..(OOhh heavy.. well, it was a required reading so i really had no other choice but to read it)
3rd question: tell us a joke
Me: super corny joke.. read my past blog nalang.

Then, I was asked to demo teach about Community development which I had no idea what it was about. My sister helped me practice and make note cards for teaching.

DEMO TEACHING CAME:
I was ready.. ready to bail.. when I arrived in the corridor of the room I'm about to teach, I wanted to ride the LRT and go straight home.. I dont know where I got the guts to go in.. BUT IM GLAD I WENT IN AND DID IT!:)

Then the rest was history, I am in a school with the people I can be who I am without pretending. I am with people who believes in my abilities, and who laughs at my joke. I am in a school that values every people they have. I am in a school who doesnt only take what is for them but gives more to its people. I am proud to be a Benildean student and a Benildean teacher. I may not be the best teacher but i know i am the BEST person I can be.:) Im proud to be a teacher.:)

****late bloomer****

in less than 25 hours and 29 minutes.. i'll be turning 25.
Whenever i say that number i cant resist the urge to say.. "Ang tanda ko na." Although most of the time i would hear someone comment "Ano pa kaya ako?!" whenever i make that comment.

I don't feel like Im 25, come to think of it how do one really know how it feels. I still feel like how i was when i was 16(?) except that now dress better, talk better, assert more, etc.

I always say to my students that a life unexamined is a life not well lived..but now that my birthday is nearing it feels like i havent really reflected my own life..

So what has happened in m 25 years on earth?

The best time for me to think is making my way home to Bulacan. The travel's really not that long but its enough for my mind to go places.

On my way home earlier, i thought that i am really a LATE BLOOMER. My friend once told me that when she saw a picture of me after college. She made a comment that i was a late bloomer.
Finally, i realized it is, indeed, TRUE! Why? well for one, it just now that i learned how to properly dress(?). Im really not the "Baduy"type, I dress properly, but i have a hard time experimenting on fashion. Now, i have gained that confidence to try on different clothes and ROCK IT!! it feels really good to dress up once in a while.

Next, I was really not the assertive type of person. In example, in a line when people try to cut the line, i would normally shut up and let them do it. Now, I have grown to state my dislike with their action and assert my rights. It might be a simple thing for some but for me its a big deal. Another is in meetings with bosses, i have learned to say my opinions and it turns out i make sense.

The next big thing that I feel is an achievement is my confidence to stand up for what i know is right. I have learned to stop compromising my beliefs to please other people. With that i have tried other people to do the same especially with my students.

it has been a wonderful 25 years of my life.Although i may have made a few wrong turns and bumps in my life, it has made me who i am today. I have turned to someone I CAN BE PROUD OF.

Happy birthday to me..:)